Applibility

Buying a ticket at the airport is of course a possibility!
It’s only the ”buying over the counter” that is not an option. Just as my Serentripity by train, having the application of the chosen airline company, a flight ticket can be booked (by latest one hour before take off*) even from the airport.

This time, I didn’t go that far before booking as my trip already had a decided destination. Therefore, I packed my luggage, left the house and booked the flight on the way into town. The first hotel reservation was done just before the lights of fasten seatbelts switched on.

Since some time, I am affected by exhaustion syndrome. With that comes difficulties of making decisions and moments of general anxiety, e.g. I feel nervous, just like before a speech for a group of people.

The day before leaving, the planning and booking of the trip seemed like an enormous mountain to climb. Sunday morning, after having decided to postpone the trip, taking at the same time a quick glance for later flights that day…, I set my mobile alarm for two hours later and started to clean my kitchen.

Letting go of the trip, gave birth to a new wish to actually do it and once decided, I have never packed a suitcase so quickly. All I checked before leaving the house was that it was still possible to book the flight. Being off season, I didn’t have to worry of finding a place to stay in Visby.

It could seem that the stress of going away for a couple of days would deteriorate my exhaustion. Yet, it rather had an opposite effect. Instead of a general anxiety for heavens know why, my trip fever was a very concrete kind of anxiety. And a positive one. As a matter of fact, I ”smiled my way” to the airport for the excitement of doing this good to myself.

One thing contributing to this good is, I believe, the choice of making it a spontaneous adventure. After some days of indecisiveness whether to go or not, then calling the trip off, I finally left home precipitately with a wondrous feeling of being very much alive.

I am so accustomed to secure the control of things, something I believe is one of the reasons for my exhaustion syndrome. Checking and controlling is good, to a certain limit. A colleague said something that has stayed in my mind now for some time: ”The more you check, the more you risk to loose confidence in yourself ” That is actually exactly what has happened and it seems to me that my ability of checking that things are correct is ”broken” at present. I feel confident this capacity will heal in time as I learn not to overuse it.

And so, on my way to healing, I explore the opposite, the letting go of controlling, just like booking the flight ticket when the trip has in fact already started…

Going off season to a place which is very popular in summer was a great advantage. Visby was so calm and peaceful, so much exactly what I needed, a nourishment to my soul and a rest for my mind…

*) The one hour limit is for many SAS flights and might be different for other companies. Also, for destinations abroad, one needs to be aware of the eventual need for e.g. Visas when spontaneously choosing a flight.

Serentripity *)

Musings at a Pizzeria in Stockholm Central Station, 28 November 2018

Once upon a time, I nurtured a dream of leaving home for the airport and buy a ticket for wherever I wanted to go in the moment (and where a ticket were available and affordable).

However, my closest airport doesn’t sell any flight tickets so I have now modified my dream to going by train.

It is possible… I can do this, maybe I will do it already in 2019?

Coming to the station with my (possibly light) luggage, I would buy a coffee (take away cup!), sitting down for a while, listening to the announcements of the loudspeaker. And in the moment I hear the name of a town that my heart spell out its Yes! to, I’ll tap the name into the ticket app, buy the ticket and then hurry off to the train.

I could do it again the day after and who knows where I would end up?

Same cup- different seat (And tea instead of coffee…)

7 March 2019

I am doing it….

The train is rushing through a grey and foggy landscape. In my heart though, there is a sunrise which is about living in the moment. A sunrise, because there is no plan, it’s just a shimmering beginning. Perhaps I go back already this evening. Or not. It doesn’t matter right now. All I know is the whining of the wheels, the jerkiness of the old fashioned wagon. As this is a regional train, I am not in a comfortable high speed intercity train. It is a train, just as it used to be as I remember from my childhood and in the time of my twenties, bringing back memories of the first trips on my own. Just like today..

So what happened? The Readiness for the unexpected doesn’t mean that something unexpected will necessarily happen.. Today it didn’t. What I did get was a peaceful day on my own, the joy of being on a trip, if just for a single day and the pleasure of seeing new surroundings.

Hallsberg is a town where I have often changed trains and I enjoyed seeing more of it than just the station on the way to somewhere else.

Seen in Hallsberg

Sitting in a train, watching the landscape is a peaceful way of spending one’s time, an opportunity to reflect and get new perspectives, as if the trip allows to see your life from ”outside” or just taking a needed rest from daily life. And maybe that is also a sort of serendipity…

Coming back to Stockholm, the station looked the same. Yet something was different. My experience of change was all in me. The time passed, the new surroundings I saw, altered my life experience even if ever so little, just as a journey always does or daily life as well. The strong awareness of something being different, is, I believe, due to the fact that the trip was short enough not to be overwhelmed by impressions and long enough to make an impression.

One thing is for sure: This ”Serentrip” gave me the taste of again. It would be an excellent way of interrailing, combined with another dream of mine; to get on a night train and getting off the first station after waking up…

*) Playing with the word Serendipity. For the definition of the word, please see:
https://en.oxforddictionaries.com/definition/serendipity
Serentripity, as I define it, is going on a trip with the sole aim of being available for the unexpected happenings of a trip.